The Weeknd · S1 E3

The Dropout

Leaving high school at 17, couch-surfing across Toronto, and disappearing into the city's nightlife

Cold Open

Abel Tesfaye packs everything he owns into a garbage bag and walks out of his grandmother's Scarborough apartment. He is seventeen years old and does not leave a note.

Kid Cudi -- Day 'N' Nite (official music video, 2008). A lonely kid who only comes alive after dark, drifting through a world that does not quite fit. When this song dropped, Abel was living the exact same pattern on the other side of the border: sleeping through the day, disappearing into Toronto until sunrise.

Song Breakdown

Day 'N' Nite -- Kid Cudi (2008)

Produced by Dot da Genius, "Day 'N' Nite" built an entire aesthetic out of loneliness and insomnia. The beat sounds like 3 AM everywhere at once, and Cudi's half-sung delivery proved you did not need to be a traditional rapper or singer to connect with millions. The song eventually went Diamond, certified for over ten million units. Abel was living the exact nocturnal pattern Cudi described: sleeping through the day, alive only after dark, caught between two worlds and belonging to neither.

I left home when I was about seventeen. Left one weekend and just never came home.

Abel Tesfaye, The Guardian, 2016
SECRET REVEAL

TAP TO REVEAL: Where did Abel sleep during his first year after dropping out?

West Hill Collegiate Institute

The Scarborough high school Abel attended before dropping out in grade eleven. A short walk from the apartment he left behind, and the last classroom he would ever sit in.

Bonus Listening

Rolling Stone -- The Weeknd

"Rolling Stone" from Thursday is the thesis statement of Abel's couch-surfing years. Over glacial production, he declares himself rootless and alone, a rolling stone with no home to return to. For this episode, it is the sound of a seventeen-year-old sleeping on his fourth couch this month and calling it freedom.

RAPID FIRE

The Dropout Years

Coming Next

Abel has no home, no diploma, and no money. What he does have is a city full of dark corners and a growing appetite for the things that happen in them. Next: the years Abel never talks about.

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